Do you feel yourself move in and out of seasons with God? How He takes an area of your life and holds your hand while teaching you what step He would have you to take? When you are able to look back and see what all He done, you can only shake your head and say “Praise God!”.

Well several times now He has lead me through “trust”. I remember thinking that once God teaches you a skill that was it, you’d be all trained up. In theory, that would be great but in real life here on Earth, where we are complex humans with complex pasts or wounds or habits or whatever, that once and out theory just don’t work. What I see happening with me is that God started with small trust. Then other small things. Then medium trust. Then other medium things…and so on. Thus, multiple seasons of trust. Leading me from a place where I had no idea where to start to a place where I don’t want to do a single day without Him.

I have trust issues. There – I said it. I do not inherently trust others. There has been good that has come from it. There has and is also bad that comes from it. I’m thankful that God is working on this for me. There was a first step for me to take, reading the Bible, knowing He commanded that we trust Him. I heard God whisper to me that I CAN trust HIM. I also had to ask God to help me trust. That is what He has been preparing me to write about today.

What trusting God looked like throughout the years for me. After years of doubting I can trust anything…..

After I chose to believe that every word of the Bible was true, then trusting God was a must. I mean, the Bible is full of promises that state we must trust God.

Psalm 37:5 Commit your way to The Lord; trust in Him, and He will act. I can remember praying and asking God what in my life I needed to commit. At that time, I didn’t hear immediately, but over time I felt conviction over TV I would watch or book choices, music etc.. I can see now how this aligned with Scripture. What we allow in our eyes, in our ears, in our bodies affects us. As I chose to listen and obey what God asked I could tell God was calling me into deeper trust.

Matthew 6:24 No one can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and money. Around year 10 of my career, I felt the Lord leading me away from my love of independence and earning my own money. This was gravely huge for me as I am fiercely independent and held an appreciation for money that I didn’t even know I had. It wasn’t of things, it was of not needing anyone else. Of being self sufficient. Of being prepared should I find myself alone. The list goes on. I walked away from my career with some trembling but I knew it was right. It felt like I was on wobbling on a splinter of wood and God said, “Go ahead, step off!”. I couldn’t see the next step, but was being asked to take it anyway.

Romans 12:2 Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect. When we walk with God, we will not be like this world defines. We will be different. Walking with The Lord changes you. You are lead to remove activities or habits or lifestyles. Will it be hard? Yes, especially without utilizing prayer every step of the way, trusting God to strengthen you. May you loose friends, maybe. Will you get some things wrong or off? Yes, we are human, but guess what? God already knows where we will get off track. All we have to do is ask Him to help us back on track.

Trusting God has been day after day of seeking Him. Reading His word. Asking Him to help me be inline with His desires for me. His plan for my family. Praying. Creating intentional time to hear Him. Then there is a choice. To trust that what I heard Him say is best for Him and His plan. Isn’t that one of the largest battles we fight? We hear God ask us to take that step, have that conversation, rid yourself of that, leave that relationship, give to that person. But do we trust that what He says is best for us more than we desire what our flesh wants?

Dear Lord help us trust in your word. Guide us to what time of day we should read your word. Help us to comprehend what we read. Lead us to pray to you. By your spirit may we understand what you are saying to us. Give us strength to follow you and your plans for us. Thank you for your son Jesus, for His willingness to live a life that for others, for us, for me. Thank you, that by His willingness to die on that cross, each of us have a choice to follow Him and to live in eternity with You. Amen